Tonight's the night.

My practice court for Environment Law. I gotta pretend to be the lawyer of a client along with two other students and go against two other groups of faux lawyers.

First I have to give a short 3 minute speech. I ain't scared for that, 3 minutes is very short, so I won't be able to say too many dumb things.

But after that the fake judges (our teachers who always have a some delusions of grandeur) will ask us questions. Now those I am terrified of.

Because I don't know shit. I mean, I know about the parts of the assignment I made for my team and I know about some of the procedural rules, but nothing substantial. It's not that I stupid or that I didn't try to learn, but this is one weird class. We just get thrown into the deep (I have no idea if that is a valid English proverb) and are supposed to fend for ourselves.

Luckily I am not alone, because nobody in my class knows what to do. They can't fail us all right?

Whatever, I am sure I can weasel my way out. I am pretty good at making shit up on the spot. Lets just hope I don't freeze up.

So I have one little favor to ask from you, tonight at 19.00 Dutch time the court starts. For all you different timezone peeps, that is about 6 hours from the timestamps on this post. Pray for me, cross your fingers, make deals with crossroad demons, I don't care, just send me some love and support my way. In return I will love and cherish you forever.

Tags: afraid of my own shadow, exams, help, school, university

My last post is all doom and gloom, but todays is going to be much better.

I did my presentation today for Human Rights and National Security (on the subject of Preventive Frisking) and I did okay. Actually I did more then okay, I rocked. The teacher said it was one of the best presentations of the year. Yay!

I have already studied one third of all the stuff I need to learn for my massive load of exams and I feel like I can breathe again.

I know I am going to do this.

On a completely different note, I am re watching Lost from season one. I can't believe the amount of clues there are already planted in the pilot. The whole shit about Locke playing backgammon, a game that represents the fight of good vs evil. OH I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE.

I am also gonna watch the BBC Miniseries of Sense and Sensibility tonight. I love Jane Austen. Hopefully I won't hate this adaption as much as I hate the movie with Emma Thompson. Mostly because I can't stand Hugh Grant and Alan Rickman always seems kinda creepy, so I can't really picture him as a love interest. You know? I think I might be the only one who thinks this. :|

Tags: babbeling, exams, jane austen, school, television, university
Current Music: The Runaways - Cherry Bomb

I just looked at my exam roster for this part of the semester (my school divides the semester into two blocks of seven weeks, each one followed by an exam week) and I am fucked.

I've got five exams in a row, monday through friday. And these aren't easy exams, these are 1000 page reading, memorize every trivial little thing exams. And this wouldn't be all that bad if I had like a week to study in advanced, but the exams start right after the last week of class, which means that I will have just one weekend of free study time, that is if I can get a free day from work. So I will have to study while also preparing for class. Great.

And to make matters even worse I also have to give an oral presentation on Human Rights and National Security, write a court document for Environment Law and attend a Practice Court for Environment Law where I have to play one of the involved parties. And I am going to be graded on that.

Which means I have to do loads of work for that and study for my exams. All in the same timeframe.

Yeah, I think I am going to die of a stress induced heart attack this block.

But, you know, this morning I made a roster of all the shit I need to learn and I will fight my way through this. I have to and I will. I hope. I can do this, I am a smart girl, most of the time. And though I love being lazy, I already survived last semesters killer exams. So there's precedent.

I'm gonna do this. I'll get fucking A's on everything. I'm the Juggernaut of studying, bitch.

Alright, I am done with my rambling. Now, I am going to drink some coffee and get my ass back to the books.

Tags: exams, fuuu, rant, school, university
Current Mood: stressed

I never did anything really bad like kill somebody and bury them in my garden, but there is one small thing that I regret. And that is not paying attention during my Ancient Greek classes. I never really studied for it, I always got bad marks for it on tests and now I have really forgotten everything I learned.

And that kinda sucks, because I did love it and I do love it even now. I wish I was more fluent in it, that I could translate texts with more ease. Just for personal satisfaction. If only I had studied harder, hell if only I had studied at all for it, I could have gotten better grades.

I really underachieved in high school. I could have gotten better grades for most classes, but I never really did anything and got away with decent grades. I was lazy as hell.

And it's just a waste really. I know that I could have been great, I might have been able to pass cum laude, but alas, it was not to be.

Tags: school, writer's block
Current Music: DJ Earworm - Blame it on the Pop

I just fell on my ass outside because my asshole neighbors didn't clean the ice from the sidewalk in front of their house. So I fell and hurt my butt and three fingers. My thumb on my left hand and my index and middle finger on the right. I tapped them up and now typing is a bitch and I can barely hold a pen. So thanks neighbors.

School starts on Monday. I have a busy schedule this semester, but I am sure I will make it. I have to, because otherwise I won't get my bachelors degree this year. The stress of it all is slowly killing me, I swear. Ah well.

Tags: fuuu, rage, school, university
Current Mood: angry

I am studying hard for my upcoming exams, for a very good reason. If I don't pass the courses of this year (my final year as a Bachelor law student) I am not allowed to start my Masters degree. So I am a bit stressed and very focused on my school work.

Which means that I prepare more for classes then I did in previous years and actually pay attention to what the teacher says. Unlike some of the people in my year. In this one class, International Private Law, I am really focused because I really like it and I might pursue a Masters degree in that direction.

In that class I am one of the few who either gives a shit or knows what she is doing. So when the teacher asks a question and nobody answers it and the room is awkwardly silent for like 20 seconds, I jump in and answer. Because otherwise nobody is going to answer it. Now I feel kinda bad about it, because I also want to give the other people a chance to answer the questions and get some brownie points from the teacher. But they almost never do. So for two hours straight it's mostly just me and the teacher talking.

And apparently that 'upsets' some of my fellow students. They actually told me that I should stop being such a smart ass.

Really? I mean really? If you want to answer, then do so. If you don't then shut the fuck up and let me at least give the teacher some consolation that she isn't standing in front of us for shit and giggles.

This isn't bloody kindergarten any more, we are in college. Don't give me shit for actually trying to do my best.

I swear the next person who says something like this is getting punched. Okay, I lie, I am a chicken when it comes to violence. But I will call their mother dirty names in front of them.

All this stress is gonna make me snap.

Tags: exams, rage, school, stupid people
Current Mood: angry

I just spend the last 5 hours or so puking my guts out and wailing to the nobody in particular about how I am never drinking again.

Luckily I feel better now, after a nice warm bath, so I can go study for the test I have tomorrow. Whoops.

Tags: exams, i can walk like jack sparrow, school
Current Mood: nauseated

So today is the first day of a new school year for me. Yay.

Even though this is my third year at law school I still have those first day jitters, were you're all excited about what is going to happen, what you are going to learn and who you are going to meet.

I don't know who I am going to meet or what I am going to learn, but I do know what is going to happen. I am going to have two lectures today, one from 13.15 till 15.00 and one from 15.15 till 17.00. They are going to be long and boring, since they're the first lectures of the year for those two classes (first one is International Public Law, which I am redoing from last year, the other one is Administrative Law, a new class) Halfway through the first one I am going to start doodling on the tables (It's a student tradition to doodle on the lecture tables and bathroom doors. We're basically still children with juvenile sense of humor) and every promise I made myself to pay attention this year will wither away.

I'll probably pass most of my classes with a little late night studying. Or at least I hope.

But you know, I am glad to be going back to school. Even if it's only so I can write dirty limericks on bathroom walls or rick roll people on lecture tables.

Tags: i'm a hooligan, random, school, university
Current Mood: jittery
Current Music: ACDC - Back In Black

I have a new default, just thought I'd announce that. I got a bit sick of the old one.

I've been really bored for the last few weeks, just waiting for school to finally start (August 31) I have been trying to write, but nothing worth mentioning has so far come flowing out of my pen.

However I am currently fleshing out some stories I had swimming around in my head and trying to write all the plot down before I start writing, maybe that way I won't derail. I have no problem coming up with plots and twists and any of that jazz, but when I go to actually write, I feel like my vocabulary is bad, I am not being descriptive enough and it just plain sucks.

Ah well.

Tags: icons, school, university, writing
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Take That - Patience

So, I showed you my little chart yesterday.

Well today I had to actually apply for the classes online, which is the most stressful thing ever.

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On a different note, I seem to be getting a lot of millage out of my McCoy icon.

Edit: Eureka! They fixed the problem and I got to enroll. Unfortunately all the classes at reasonable times where full so I had to enroll in the one on Wednesday from 18.00 till 20.00 Aw well, it's better then nothing.

Tags: fuuu, rant, school, university
Current Mood: angry